Yay...but

I never really did like taking the first thing I'm given.

WOW 30% off everything at Gorgeous Cosmetics.
I'll be there 3 times a week now.

MAC studio sculpt foundation

Horoscope: Human beings are hard-wired to forget difficult experiences. It's not just because when things are painful for us we can't bear to keep the memory. It's because some processes are worth going through more than once because of the results they bring. Our great 'mistakes' are not mistakes at all. Sometimes, it's only through getting it really wrong, that we can get it right. There's a lot of madness happening in your life now, but there's also a lot of magic. Trust it and be open to the idea that things are far better than you fear

I want to tryyyy it!

Jobs! Jobs! Jobs!

Wish me luckkk :)

Do you think you'll be the guy,

To make the queen of the angels sigh?

Self Service

Beauty cannot be conquered.

Happy birthday

Emily Fletcher, you amazing girl.

Ah mess, mess, mess.

Horoscope: Why are adults so much more prone to worry than children? Teenagers, for example, do wild and reckless things. Their parents express great concern, even though they know they did much the same at that age. This is partly because a sense of caution increases automatically as we get older. It is partly because, looking back, we can see more about the situation we were in, than we ever could at the time. You feel apprehension. Someone else, though, seems quite comfortable. Can you compromise?

I'll keep a candle lit,

for you darling.

Jonathan Cainer, shut up.

Horoscope: People complain about the 'health and safety' culture of modern societies. But it represents an evolution of conscience that is, by and large, positive. Once we allowed all kinds of risky activities to take place without so much as a second thought. Though the world has now swung to the opposite extreme, at least it has a greater awareness of where danger lies. In your personal world now, a shift is taking place. Something that was once taken for granted is now being considered very carefully. That's very healthy.

Happy birthday Rhys :)

Wow today's been a good day!

Amazingly good AND busy.
The way every day should be.

Why do I worry about you so much?

Horoscope: We all know how we are supposed to act if we want to live like great saints. We have heard their stories, we have seen their examples. But embedded deep in our culture, is a rejection of such a high standard. 'That's for super-humans.' We tell each other, 'It is only natural for us to be more subjective and intolerant.' Over the last few decades, our society has evolved impressively. Many shocking habits and behaviours are now considered archaic. Lead the way forward today. Be as good as you know how to be.

You should know how to look after yourself.

My birthday roll didn't come out.

I wish I wasn't drunk.

Today was better then Monday,

So much better then Sunday,
what's in store for Wednesday?
Today's pretty good for a Tuesday...
Oh, the 7 days of dellusion.

Time for bed

..but I'm scared to sleep.

Don't you wish you could control what you dream?

The beginning of my portfolio:

Marina:

Maybe snap shots would be better...

Oh, the worst dream last night.

Horoscope: Nothing lasts forever. That's what they say, and they are perfectly correct. Nothing does, indeed, last forever. How can it not? After all, nothing is nothing. It does not exist. Therefore, it can hardly stop existing! Is nothing the only thing that can last forever? Well, wherever you have a something, no matter what that something is, you have a time when it was not there and a time when it will not be there again. What would you rather have in life? Something? Or nothing? Well then, be glad of what you've got this week!

Cainer must be on drugs. Although, I'd like a little something.

Everyones looking to the sky to find that one superlative high.

Little do they know it's right here at our feet.

Who says you cant turn your dreams and fantasies into your reality?

WOW!!!
I cannot wait for this week to start.
It's going to be amazing.

This entire week

Horoscope: 'Sticks and stones,' the old playground line insists, 'may break my bones but words can never hurt me.' This, like so many things learned in our youth, turns out to be an oversimplification. The wrong words, delivered at the wrong moment, can do an awful lot of damage. Hence the other old saying that, 'The pen is mightier than the sword.' But then that too, is a bit of a simplification, really. Watch what you say this week. Don't, though, watch or listen, or worry too much, about what others are saying to (or about) you. It is, in the end, only words - and your outlook remains most encouraging.

...feels like one never ending day.

Take me away Andy.

I love the fact that you can stare at Andy's work without having to think; the way it vacates your mind of all thought and allows you to simply look. His works so visually appealing I don't care about the meaning behind it I just want to sit and stare at all the pages and the photographs. I do the same with his movies. Poor Little Rich Girl's twice as good with the sound off. I think too many people fuss over meaning and technique, they don't realise how difficult it actually is to make something with only the intention of being enjoyable to look at. I don't want to look at work that lets you see right through someone, I just want to stare.

Lost my phone.

Horoscope: Life is short. Unless, that is, you are not enjoying it. Then it goes on like a bad movie that you have become morally obliged to sit through. No matter how you may squirm in your seat, there is no escape. Even if you close your eyes, you can't blot out the soundtrack. You can, though, turn the bad movie into a good film. You can find something to like about it, even if it is only the camera work or the lighting - or the way that the set has been dressed. Try to like whatever you feel uncomfortable about this weekend.

Get me out of here.

Oh yeah, it's also my birthday.

I pretty much hit the jackpot in the present department.

Black bird.

Horoscope: What are you waiting for? And what's waiting for you? Are you perhaps, waiting for what's waiting for you to stop waiting and take a step in your direction? What's to stop you taking that first step? Are you worried about rejection? Of misunderstanding? Of a mistake of some kind? Inwardly, you recognise what's right for you... and your intuition is rarely if ever wrong. Reasonably enough then, what's right for you must also be what you are right for. Take the action you are half-tempted to delay. And let life move on

OK Cainer but if it doesn't work your fucked.

Possibility.

Now thats friendship:

Unlimited sms.

HoroscopeIf there is something missing from your world, perhaps you do not need to find it. Possibly the absence of something or someone is perfect in its own way. Nature, after all, abhors a vacuum. If there is a space in your life, the universe can help you fill it. If, though, you are hanging on tight to a stopgap arrangement, you may find it hard to change this - even when a preferable solution presents itself. Don't be in too much of a hurry to take care of a need, today. It may be better to live with it for a while longer and see what options arise.

I wish I could just know what's going to happen.

I want to be...

The belle of the ball.

MARINA

I HAVE TO BUY YOU THIS BAG

I have the ability to change the world...my own atleast.

Horoscope: Sometimes, when you are cooking food, you can rescue a dish that has gone wrong. You may not be able to take an ingredient away but you can perhaps add something that will make an awkward flavour more palatable. Or if you are painting, you can turn an accidental brush stroke into something that looks right and intended. Life, every now and then, offers us a similar opportunity to correct a mistake. We may even be able to take something that has gone wrong and make it seem perfectly right. Remember that today.

I will no longer worry about other people because aren't my problem.
I've lost my head latley; I know what makes me happy.

I'm not going to waste my time anymore.

You knock on the door
She don't recognize your voice no more
So she got on an airplaine
Not so long after
Stripped down from the fever
Laid down in her hotel bed
Wouldn't take no phone calls at all
She didn't want no more voices in her head, now
And that's the way that you feel
That's the way that you feel
If that's the way that you feel, honey, then
That's the way that you feel
In the blue part of the evening
Sometimes its hot
She thinks she hears you coming but
She's stuck against the wall
She want what she want so she do what she do
But now when she looks at you she
Covers one eye 'cause she can see into your mind
She no longer wants to
And that's the way that you feel
That's the way that you feel
If that's the way that you feel, honey, then
That's the way that you feel

You are not my friends.

Fucking backstabbers.
It's all so superficial.
I dont understand why you even care?

Don't you hate it when your downloading a torrent and its on around 93% complete but theres no seeders?

Hororscope: If you feel a little drained or depleted, don't worry. There is a hidden advantage to the comparatively low ebb you appear to have reached. It allows you to undertake an essential period of re- evaluation. There IS a pressing need for a rethink with regard to a crucial matter. It is exceedingly difficult to contemplate all the relevant issues while you are busily making things happen and responding to challenges. At least, now, you have no option other than to dwell on what's wrong - and slowly find a way to put it right.

Jonathon Cainer's always right.
Why do I have that weird 'butterflies in my stomach' feeling about this week?

Is it worth it?

I'm too busy assuming it is to even consider it might not be.

Centre of everything

Keeping it together or keeping it apart?

Friday the 13th.

Horoscope: Some people go looking for luck. They explore option after option in the hope that they will find luck somehow hiding within it. Chasing luck, though, is a bit like trying to track down a butterfly. You can take yourself to a place where you might expect to find it. But once you get there, you really have to stand still and let it come to you. If you make a sudden move or try to seize an advantage, you may find opportunity vanishes before your very eyes. It's Friday the thirteenth. Your whole weekend can be lucky, as long as you don't try too hard.

Well I'm rather excited about it all.

Dirt.

She stepped into the hall of mirrors
Where she discovered a reflection of herself
Even the greatest stars discover themselves in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars discover themselves in the looking glass
Sometimes she saw her real face
And sometimes a stranger at her place
Even the greatest stars find their face in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars find their face in the looking glass
She fell in love with the image of herself
and suddenly the picture was distorted
Even the greatest stars dislike themselves in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars dislike themselves in the looking glass
She made up the person she wanted to be
And changed into a new personality
Even the greatest stars change themselves in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars change themselves in the looking glass
The artist is living in the mirror
With the echoes of himself
Even the greatest stars live their lives in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars live their lives in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars fix their face in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars fix their face in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars live their lives in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars live their lives in the looking glass

TOMORROW NIGHT

JASPER LA JEWEL (my bestfriend) IS PERFORMING HER FIRST BURLESQUE SHOW AT YAH YAH'S ON SMITH ST.

come, come, come, come, come! everybody come!

I much prefer...

this camera at night but the flash is a bitch to get going.

Yay I have the day off.

Hororscope: Superman always did fine until someone confronted him with Kryptonite. A little bit of rock from his home planet soon stopped him in his tracks. We are all, in a way, like that caped crusader. We believe we can fly - and, though this doesn't always cause us to rise up into the air, it creates a lightness of spirit that serves a similar psychological purpose. What stops us? What brings us back down to earth with a bump? Doubt. When we are no longer so sure of our entitlement to happiness, it evaporates. So why give in to that today?

Jonathon Cainer, today, for the first time in my life, you are of no help whatsoever.

Horoscope: When you do the right thing, you don't always get the right results. Or rather, you do, but they don't seem right to you at first. Let us leave aside, for a moment, the possibility that you have not done the right thing. Maybe you have only done what you think is the right thing. That could be a reason why the consequences seem to be wrong. We said, though, that we would leave that aside. So let us work on the comfortable assumption that you have indeed, done what's right. What's happening now must be right too. Trust it.
Picking up photos today along with my sunglasses from some post office in Tottenham because I missed the stupid postie this morning.
Working 5.30 to 10.30 at Cho Gao.
I really hope I can get next Friday off, the Thurs too if I'm lucky.

Mannequin

= GENIUS

Nothing only satisfies nothing.

Your face makes me smile, for a moment, before my stomach turns then I realise I feel sick.

Come and see Tallulah

Thanks May!
I really want to see this now.

My skin doesn't like the cold.

Horoscope: You have a fertile imagination. Your ability to envisage is impressive. When dedicated to creative pursuits, this facility is most beneficial. Not so, though, when applied to issues needing a more pragmatic approach. The sky suggests you are now conjuring up something very fanciful. Either you are pinning your hopes on an unlikely source of inspiration... or you are attaching too much fear to a harmless situation. Be more realistic. Then, please, relax. Regardless of what you think you understand, you are about to be pleasantly surprised.

I figured since...

I'm going to be spending over $95 at MAC tomorrow, I might aswell get my make up done too.
Still no idea what to wear on my birthday...
Life's so hard; what a drag.

Love, love, love.

Could be nice.

I must finish what I...

black texta, permanent marker (eep) and conti crayon on my wall.
I hate digital cameras.

The Swan Princess.

Margot Fonteyn.
Best compliment ever.

Cant wait to see Firebird and other legends.
Ballerina's are so beautiful.

Going insane from not having any time to go out and spend my money so I have to go out tonight.
Whats the use of working when I can't spend?

19 in two weeks...

Frail like cos lettuce.

Shopping is unsatisfying when I have no where to wear my clothes to and nothing fits.

Exhausted.

Annoying rollercoaster.

All work and no play

Makes Jasmina feel like she could possibly become a very very dull girl.

Working 9 to 5, what a way to make a living.

I like work.
Work is fun.
Marina's work is also fun; they let you print your own visitor stickers

Your bad for me like ciggarettes,

so maybe I'll quit smoking?
I dont need you, you need me.
I dont need leeches.

Exit everything.

Horoscope: Why do the most capable, practical people receive so little co- operation or recognition? Why, come to that, are they so often criticised and complained about? It is, to some extent, a matter of simple jealousy. People don't always admire each other's talents. Sometimes, they just resent them. A good psychologist could probably come up with a thousand reasons to sympathise with someone who seems to be going out of their way to make life difficult for you. Make an allowance, by all means, but under no circumstances should you doubt yourself.

I have a good feeling about you.
Please don't let me be wrong.