I ride and I ride...

Martyrdom is a vaguely addictive state of mind. It's a shield behind which you can hide. An excuse with which you can get yourself off awkward hooks. 'I can't do that. I've got to do this.' 'I'd love to, but I'm not allowed.' Do such statements truly translate as, 'I daren't'? Or, 'The only way I know how to think of myself, is as a person beholden to others'. Someone, somewhere in your world, is rejecting an opportunity they are entitled to take up. But, with enough encouragement, all bad habits can be broken this week.